Saturday, 19 August 2017

Mini Update

Hello Everyone 😊
Yes, I know its been a while, i'm super shit at blogging lately, I have nothing to blog about, its sad.
As usual, I'm hoping next month will be better but it could be worse 😂

These past couple of days have been hectic. My mum finally went for her gallbladder removal on Thursday, so me and my sister are looking after her. She can't lift anything heavy or drive for 2 weeks. I've been doing my part, cleaning, making cuppas. She mostly sleeps, hopefully, she'll be more brighter soon. The house is currently covered in flowers, it looks like a funeral home 😂 I have made a quite few death jokes, but humour helps.
I haven't been able to sleep properly, in case she needs something doing, so I've only been sleeping for an hour or so each time. But as my sister was off work today, once she woke up, I went to bed to have a nap, I definitely felt better afterwards.

Nothing else has been happening really, I've been watching a lot, like usual, still catching up with Jessica Jones before I watch The Defenders.

My sister has started watching Atypical, she said she finds it a bit funny, because its about an autistic boy and his life and she said she laughs at things he does, that I do too. Maybe this program can educate people more. It would be nice.

I made a few cards recently:




I'm currently learning how to make envelopes, stress isn't even the word. I also have a really good idea for gifts too, but I'll have to see if that works before I show you, look forward to that in the future.

If you don't already, follow me on Twitter Here I'm always on there, say Hey or dm me if you want to chat, im game 😂 (does anyone actually say that)

Speak soon,

Love, Emma xxx


Tuesday, 1 August 2017

Update

Hello Everyone 😊

Wow, it's been a while since I have written properly on here. My motivation is lacking, basically, it's in the shit bin! (This might not make sense, just writing what I feel)
I have always tried to be as "frank" as possible on here, lying gets you nowhere in life. This blog is an expression of my life, this might sound stupid as hell, but I love this blog, I love writing about anything. I check my views multiple times during the day, every day, seeing what people have been reading and hopefully enjoying what I write.
So to be as real as possible, I will tell you the realness with my mental health. If you know me, then you know I'm a negative person, always have been, I'm my worst critic. Having depression + autism + negativity is the worst. My brain is constantly on, it never shuts off when I sleep, everything is heightened, I can't relax at all, the slightest thing can piss me off, now add that to depression, every day I wake up, wishing I didn't, would I be better off dead, is there any point in living a life going no where, why do I want to live in a world that is going to shit. My problem; couldn't kill myself if I tried, I'm afraid of death, leaving this world in pain, terrifies me, what happens to my family, my cats, my possessions, what happens to my blog and my social media, its stupid to think about, but in this day and age, its all we think about really.
When you read this, you'll probably think I need help. But I don't really, I'm not going to kill myself, I have lived with this feeling all my life and 26 years later, I am still here.
Yes, sometimes, I need to vent, usually twitter and instagram get the worst of it.
But, I know, my problems are not as worse as some people have it, I'm not dying of an incurable disease, I have not been raped, attacked or been put in a life and death situation.
My life now, is nothing. I do nothing, every day life is the same, I go to sleep, I wake, watch tv, play games, sleep more, eat. That's it! Most of my time is spent alone, I rarely go out and when I do, I'm with my family.
I live off my benefits and do nothing to support my mum at home because I am lazy and selfish.
I wish I wasn't negative all the time, but shit happens.
I try to be happy when I'm not but no one never knows as I don't show it.
I didn't want my blog to go down this route of being negative and depressive, But I can't shy away from what I'm feeling, in my mind, I am still that immature 16 year old who doesn't want to grow up. I don't feel like an adult, even though I do have bills to pay. I don't want to get older, I want to keep playing the sims and watching Barbie films forever. I refuse to grow up for anyone.
I hope this post hasn't angered anyone, feel free to private message me on Twitter

I'm hoping to be happier soon, I bought some sports clothes, I'm fat and its getting harder to walk, so I'm determined to lose weight by walking everyday. I did hear somewhere that exercise is good for depression, lets hope so.

Also hoping to produce more content this month too. Get my blog back to normal again and maybe less depressive posts in the future.

Love, Emma xxx

Monday, 31 July 2017

July Favourite's

Hello Everyone 😊
As per usual, I have been watching a lot this month. Let's get to it.

Netflix - Films

Ant-Man - 10/10
A newer Marvel film that has been added to Netflix and one I haven't seen yet, saying that I watched it 3 times and enjoyed it every time. Can't wait to see where the story goes.

You Get Me - 8/10
Plot: Tyler's crazy in love with his perfect girlfriend Ali, but when a big fight makes him and Ali break up, he lands in the arms of sexy out-of-towner Holly who shows him a night he's gonna remember. The next morning he finds that not only is Ali taking him back, but Holly is a new student at their school and is dead set on her new man.
I very much enjoyed this film, I like films like this one. Must watch. 

Kevin Hart: What Now - 10/10
I watched this with my sister, we were laughing so hard, I nearly wet myself. Definitely a must see if you love Kevin Hart. 

Netflix Series

Good Witch S3 - 10/10
This show never fails to make me smile. Can't wait for next season. 

Daredevil - 10/10
Plot: Matt Murdock, with his other senses superhumanly enhanced, fights crime as a blind lawyer by day, and vigilante by night.
I was sceptical at first as I loved the film. But hearing about the defenders starting soon, I knew I had to watch this, so in 4 days, I binge watched both seasons. And I love it, the story line is great, his role is amazing and so is the fighting.

TV Series

The Loch - 10/10
Plot: The search for a serial killer becomes a matter of life and death for detective Annie Redford, who is trying to cope with her first murder case.
I love a good mini series and this one did not disappoint. Very gripping drama from the start, I had no idea where the story line was going either so that's a huge bonus.

Fearless - 8/10
Plot: Emma Banville, a human rights lawyer known for defending lost causes, sets out to prove the innocence of Kevin Russell, who was convicted for the murder of a school girl 14 years earlier.
Another gripping mini series. 

Ackley Bridge - 9/10
Plot: The merging of two schools causes plenty of problems for headmistress Mandy who has to deal with explosive fall-outs and problem pupils.
Everyone kept comparing this to Waterloo Road, but I liked this for it originality plus I love a good drama. 

The Inbetweeners - 10/10
Plot: Follows four friends and their antics during their final years of school.
So after 7 years, I finally watched this, I had seen some random episodes here and there but never actually watched it, so when I found out it was on Virgin box sets, then I knew I had to watch it and this has to be the most British thing I've ever watched and the humour is perfect and crude. Just need to see the films next. 

Love Island - 10/10
7 weeks and it's all over, its been a week since it finished and I still can't get over it. I'm going to miss watching it and tweeting about it. Best show ever! Who was your fave islander? Mine was Camilla. 

TV Movies

Speed - 10/10
Plot: A young police officer must prevent a bomb exploding aboard a city bus by keeping its speed above 50 mph.
This film is one of my faves and never disappoints. 

Gravity - 9/10
Plot: Two astronauts work together to survive after an accident which leaves them alone in space.
This was breathtaking! Sandra Bullocks performance was amazing and the music was perfect. 

Music

Kesha - Praying 10/10
She's back and better than ever 😊 such a moving song. 

Dua Lipa - New Rules 10/10
Love her voice and she's so pretty too. 

YouTube

Jazzybum
She's so funny, I just love watching her. 

Dates to remember in August

11th August - Atypical - Netflix
18th August - The Defenders - Netflix 
25th August - Dragons Race to the Edge - Netflix 

What has been your favourite this month? 

Love, Emma xxx






All images taken off google images, all plots taken off imdb.

Friday, 30 June 2017

June Favourite's

Hello Everyone 😊
Is it just me or has this month gone really quick 😂 all my programs are ending this month, making way for new series to start.

Netflix

Reign - 10/10
4 seasons and its over, its been an emotional roller coaster but I have loved every single episode. It's worth a watch if you love history themed series. Long may she reign.

Orange is the new black - 10/10 
Amazing season, binge watched all 13 episodes in 2 days, can't wait for the new season next year.

Izombie - 10/10
I watched the season finale on Wednesday, can't wait to see what happens next.

TV

One Love Manchester Concert - 10/10
Very emotional but loved watching everyone come together.

Paula - 10/10
I love mini series and this did not disappoint, very gripping from the start. A must watch.

Bull - 8/10
Plot: BULL stars Michael Weatherly as Dr. Jason Bull in a drama inspired by the early career of Dr. Phil McGraw, the founder of one of the most prolific trial consulting firms of all time. Brilliant, brash and charming, Dr. Bull is the ultimate puppet master as he combines psychology, human intuition and high-tech data to learn what makes jurors, attorneys, witnesses and the accused tick.

Macgyver - 9/10
I never saw the original but I do enjoy this. 
Plot: Young Angus "Mac" MacGyver works for a clandestine organization within the U.S. government, relying on his unconventional problem-solving skills to save lives.

The 100 season 4 - 10/10
This season was explosive, so many people died and the season finale shook me so bad. Can't wait for next season. 

Love Island - 10/10
This will always be a firm favourite to watch in the summer. If you follow me on twitter, you will know that I am obsessed with this show. Camillia to win 😊

Music

Katy Perry Witness Album - 10/10 
I'm so obsessed with this album, I love every song. 

YouTube

Sid & Dina 
Love these two, so funny to watch and I've learnt a lot through their ramadan vlogs. 

Dates to remember in July

3rd July - Killjoys - Syfy - 9pm
5th July - Colony - Sky 1 - 9pm
7th July - Zoo - Sky 1 - 9pm
14th July - Friends from college - Netflix
27th July - Midnight Texas - Syfy - 9pm

What has been your favourite this month?

Love, Emma xxx



*All pictures taken off google images and plots have been taken off IMDB. 

Wednesday, 28 June 2017

Day Out To Llandudno

Hello Everyone 😊
On Sunday the 25th, me, my mum and my mums friend went to Llandudno in Wales for a day trip. It's only about an hour and a half away from my house so my mum drove us. We were going to a Doll house emporium in the town hall, as my mums friend has doll houses and wanted to get some stuff. The weather was a bit cloudy, it rained a little but it was rather warm walking around. I love Wales, it's so pretty.
We got there early, so we decided to go into a cafe called The Lemon Tree and have breakfast.



Hot Chocolate

Tea Pot

Prawn Sandwich

It was so nice, and I will be going again, the cakes looked amazing and I wish I had bought one. When we finished, we went over to the town hall, it was a bit small, and I didn't find anything I liked so it was a bit shit in my opinion. 
Afterwards, we looked around a few shops and went towards the promenade, where there was a triathlon on, it was a bit crowded but I was more interested in all the dogs going past.



We didn't stay here that long, we soon headed back toward the car and decided to go to a massive shopping complex as I wanted to go into Primark. It's been years since I've been in one, and I really wanted home-ware bits, the home section was rather small for a bit store but I did manage to get some stuff. 
 This is currently hanging on my door


I couldn't find just Hufflepuff socks so I got the set. 

It was a good day, I enjoyed myself, it's so big, I want to go back and explore some more. I really want to go the castle and the zoo. 

We got home at about 3pm, I was so tired, I basically crawled into bed and crashed out. My body ached after ward like usual 😊

Have you ever been to Llandudno? Or anywhere else in Wales?
Did you enjoy this post?

See you soon, 

Love, Emma xxx


Wednesday, 21 June 2017

Update

Hello Everyone 😊
Anyone else melting in this heat 😂
The UK is currently having a heatwave, don't know how long it will last but it's rather uncomfortable to be in, even the house is unbearable, but I am so grateful to have my room downstairs, at least I can sleep, even with my duvet on.
It was Father's day on Sunday so me and my sister got picked up by my dad, half sister and his wife and we went to the local hungry horse for breakfast. It was very nice. I made my dad a card, to be honest I have no idea where I was going with it but this is what I came up with:

This post will probably be going out on Wednesday, so yesterday, I was sat in the garden enjoying a cold glass of Pepsi when I heard a thud behind me, it was a little bird, it had flown into the window and luckily landed on a chair, so I picked it up, mainly out of reach of the cats and stroked it for a bit, til it could get its breath back then it flew off. Obviously I had to get some pictures:


I was surprised that it didn't peck me at all and I think it enjoyed my gentle touch and a bit of encouragement to get flying 😊
I'm so happy that I could save a life today, I always try and help any animal that needs it, being the animal lover I am.
Hoping it lives a full life 😊

I also got a phone call off the job centre yesterday, asking if I was okay and if i'm leaving the house, she said there is this company that works with them, that helps people like me, try and get back out in the world by themselves so she's passing my details over. So I am willing to give them a go.

As for blogging, this has to be the worst bloggers block I've ever had, I want to change that. I want to enjoy blogging and thinking up new ideas for posts. I'm off to Llandudno on Saturday to a doll house and miniature warehouse/fair thing, I've never been there before, So I will be taking my camera with me, my mum mentioned having a picnic on the pier so I'm hoping to get some amazing pictures for you all.

Are there any type of posts that you would like to see on my blog?
I'm thinking of doing a Q&A, so send me your questions to my twitter: Link
I'm always on Twitter if you want to talk 😊

Hope this is enough of an update for you 😊

See you soon,

Love, Emma xxx

Monday, 5 June 2017

5th Blogiversary

Hello Everyone 😊

I'd like to say thank you to everyone who has been with me on this journey and I cant believe its been 5 years already.
I want to say thank you to my twitter friends, all my blogging friends I've met and all the opportunities I've been given.
Thank you to all my readers and followers.
I love you all. And here's to the future 😊

See you soon,

Love, Emma xxx
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